It feels like I have been chewed up and spit out with the end of the dissertation. It's been over a month and I still feel all mushy and gooey--pretty much like any invertebrate--no backbone. However, it's not all bad. My medication content is slowly going down and I don't feel any worse; not any better, but not any worse. So that's good news. I'm very blessed to have good people to talk to--therapist, sister-in-law, friends. . .I have been dragging a bit lately, but right now I feel pretty good. The overall messages I am getting for life is to follow your heart, be honest with yourself and others, just keep trying. Now to implement all of these things; it will be hard because I'm feeling so squishy right now, but I will try. Like the poem by Mary Oliver "I will try."