A good therapist is makes life so much more bearable! I have been lucky enough to find someone who tends to lift me up, even during sessions that lack excitement or discovery of insight. My therapist inspires me to try, even on the darkest of days. So I'll try. I'll keep going, putting one foot in front of the other, I'll keep taking steps to move forward even when all I want to do is lay down and die. That's what a good therapist can do.
I'm feeling less sluggish today. Still tired and a bit down, but a bit less down. And that could also be considered a bit up, couldn't it? I wish I knew what is causing the difference. My husband asked me that and I have no answer for him; I'm just less down today. My new medicine (in my ever-growing cocktail) isn't supposed to have an effect for several weeks, so I doubt it's that. Maybe it's sex. Maybe it's random chance. Maybe my cold is causing all the problems and I'm finally getting over my cold. Maybe it's an answer to my prayers or the alignment of the stars. I just don't know. And the only reason I'm dwelling on this is because I want to keep moving in the direction of a little bit up. I am grateful for the small bit of relief I'm feeling and am greedy and want to feel more. Unfortunately, I don't know what the answer is. It's frustrating and I'd better move to a different topic before I lose my little bit up.
One thing my therapist wants me to do is to start exercising. I was doing fairly well for a while, but I've stopped. I think I'll try running. I used to run (well, shuffle, really, but it's running for me) and even ran a marathon. I think its time to start running again. I know winter is a great time for that! Oh well, I'll start with a mile tomorrow and see where I go from there. And maybe I can get into exercising enough that I can back off the meds a bit, or altogether. Who knows? But for now, I'll plan on running a mile and see what happens. One day at a time. One little bit up at a time.
I'm feeling less sluggish today. Still tired and a bit down, but a bit less down. And that could also be considered a bit up, couldn't it? I wish I knew what is causing the difference. My husband asked me that and I have no answer for him; I'm just less down today. My new medicine (in my ever-growing cocktail) isn't supposed to have an effect for several weeks, so I doubt it's that. Maybe it's sex. Maybe it's random chance. Maybe my cold is causing all the problems and I'm finally getting over my cold. Maybe it's an answer to my prayers or the alignment of the stars. I just don't know. And the only reason I'm dwelling on this is because I want to keep moving in the direction of a little bit up. I am grateful for the small bit of relief I'm feeling and am greedy and want to feel more. Unfortunately, I don't know what the answer is. It's frustrating and I'd better move to a different topic before I lose my little bit up.
One thing my therapist wants me to do is to start exercising. I was doing fairly well for a while, but I've stopped. I think I'll try running. I used to run (well, shuffle, really, but it's running for me) and even ran a marathon. I think its time to start running again. I know winter is a great time for that! Oh well, I'll start with a mile tomorrow and see where I go from there. And maybe I can get into exercising enough that I can back off the meds a bit, or altogether. Who knows? But for now, I'll plan on running a mile and see what happens. One day at a time. One little bit up at a time.
1 comment:
A little less down is DEFINITELY a little bit up. I'll give you that! :)
I'm so thankful for my therapist. I'm a firm believer that everyone can benefit from one...but some of us NEED them more than others.
I'm almost recovered from a back injury and want to start running again soon. If you ever need a running partner...I'm your lady.
I'm so glad we've connected.
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