I’m on a slippery slope down to feelings of worthlessness. I’m so tired of my life, of being me. I’m so tired of struggling with depression every day. I don’t want to live my life this way; I want to enjoy life, enjoy the blessings in my life, and enjoy the path I’m on. Instead, life is burdensome, I can never seem to get my mood up past mediocre. It’s horrible. I don’t see the purpose of all the good in my life, all my possibilities and potential, and then being saddled with depression. My life is not working this way. I wish I knew how to fight my way out of this, how to find peace. Living with depression seems like such a waste of life. If there’s a reason or purpose to my living like this, I don’t see it; I can’t imagine it. I’m weary and wish I could feel God’s presence and love in my life. I’m very lonely.
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Thursday, May 2, 2013
Depression is a Waste of Life
I’m on a slippery slope down to feelings of worthlessness. I’m so tired of my life, of being me. I’m so tired of struggling with depression every day. I don’t want to live my life this way; I want to enjoy life, enjoy the blessings in my life, and enjoy the path I’m on. Instead, life is burdensome, I can never seem to get my mood up past mediocre. It’s horrible. I don’t see the purpose of all the good in my life, all my possibilities and potential, and then being saddled with depression. My life is not working this way. I wish I knew how to fight my way out of this, how to find peace. Living with depression seems like such a waste of life. If there’s a reason or purpose to my living like this, I don’t see it; I can’t imagine it. I’m weary and wish I could feel God’s presence and love in my life. I’m very lonely.
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I know this feeling all too well. When you have tried the medication and talked to the counselors, read every thing you can get your hands on and still it hangs around your neck.
All I know is depression tends to go in ebbs and flows. It will get better again.
It is always important to talk to your doctor. Please do this. And write in your blog. You are safe here. Above all, take care of yourself. Sleep as much as you need to. Try to sit outside for a few minutes everyday. Take hot baths in epsom salts, they help you relax.
And don't discount that you could be in peri-menopause.
Sending you so much love.
On the advice of a friend I am taking Rhodiola (an herbal supplement). I don't know anyone else who has tried it. I wondered if you had any experience with it? It is advertised as being an adaptogen, but seems to work more like a stimulant. Whatever it is, it helped me this month. s
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