Slipping

For almost 3 weeks I've lived without the dark pull of depression.  But I'm slipping.  I'm not sure what exactly is causing the change, but I do know it's coinciding with the stress I'm feeling over Christmas.  I'm feeling frantic and worried and stressed.  I want to get the "perfect" gifts for people, but I don't really feel like going shopping--I just don't have time to do any relaxed shopping.  Then there's the whole issue of how much money to spend.  And in less than a week we'll be traveling to visit family, so I have to get everything ready for that.  It's too much, but if I don't do it, how will it get done?

I'm hoping that this doesn't last and that I keep myself from slipping down any further.  I should get out and go jogging, it's actually a lot warmer than the 23 degrees (F) that I have been jogging in.  But I have so much to do today, people expecting me to be places at certain times, so I don't think I can get it in today.  My mood is such that I'm not too sad about it, but I know I really "should" exercise today.  Oh well, c'est la vie.  I really just have to try not to let my thoughts spiral downward and out of control, but it's hard.  I wish the Christmas season was really more relaxing and beautiful than it is for me this year.  With that being said, Merry Christmas everyone!