Floodgates

Wow, it's been a very emotional weekend/new week for me. The floodgates have been open and I've spewed forth more tears than I knew I had in me. And this is all after an incredibly good therapy session that left me feeling more centered than I had felt in a long, long, time. So where did all this pain and sorrow and suffering come from? I have no idea. Maybe I finally got to a place where I really acknowledged how I've been feeling--acknowledged it from my emotional center rather than from my intellect. It's a bit frightening, yet strangely cathartic.

It all started out as feeling weepy. I would start crying a little at every sad story I heard, sad song, or basically anyone who mentioned every feeling sad at any time in their life. Usually I'm quite in control of my emotions--a fact my therapist can attest to. But this weekend I kept finding myself tearing up at the least little thing. Then yesterday it hit me and now it's been 2 days of uncontrollable sobbing. I had no idea what was going on with me. I thought perhaps it was time to be put away or something. But, I must say that I feel really good right now. Emotionally I have no idea where I'm at or where I may be going, but I am feeling quite refreshed. I had no idea crying could feel so good! Although I am not comfortable enough with crying to say it will be a common occurrence--old habits die hard and I still like being in control. :)