Stabilized Mood

My mood has stabilized.  I'm no longer in the pit of despair.  However, I still lack energy, motivation, and interest in much.  But I'm okay with that right now.  That being said, I did get my hormone levels checked and had the test for the MTHFR gene anomaly done.  My progesterone and testosterone are very low.  I'm also heterozygous for one of the MTHFR mutations.  Now my options are hormone therapy and/or Deplin.  Since I don't seem to have a lot of the other symptoms of low progesterone and testosterone, I've decided to try the Deplin (l-methylfolate) first.  It's fairly expensive, but the research I've done shows promising results.  Tomorrow I start taking it.  I'll keep you posted.  After a couple of months I'll revisit the hormone issue.  I'm a bit hesitant to start tweaking with my hormones; I'm not sure why, but it sort of makes me nervous.  The Deplin has little to no side effects and is actually considered "medical food."  I'm not sure what I'll do with myself if I start feeling energized and interested in life.  But I'll just have to cross that bridge when I get to it.

On another note, I completed an application for a tenure track university position.  I don't think I'm very competitive since the advertisement said they were giving preference to plant geneticists and I'm a plant ecologist.  However, they do want a plant person to teach a variety of botany classes, which I can do.  It was mainly an exercise in taking some action in my life.  I'm content to read and watch Netflix right now.