These last couple of days has found me a bit more hopeful than usual. I've been reading a lot of blogs about depression and the like and am finding some interesting therapies out there (I use that term very loosely). One in particular, that I am quite interested in, is concerning l-methylfolate. Now, if I understand my research correctly, l-methylfolate is the form of folic acid that your body utilizes. There is evidence that people who have difficulty transforming folate into l-methylfolate have a tendency toward depression and anxiety (and a whole slew of other things like miscarriages, of which I've had 3). This is a genetic disorder and there's a doctor here in the TC area that has done a lot of research on this. Anyway, I'm in the infancy of my research, but I'm hopeful. I'm hopeful because there is evidence that l-methylfolate can augment the efficacy of anti-depressants. I'm hopeful because I've read blogs where people who have tried this have had some awesome results. I'm hopeful because something about this rings true to me. I'm hopeful because if I do have the genetic condition, it could explain some of what I'm seeing in my own children. And I'm hopeful because if it works for me, it might work for my sisters and mother.
I realize my hope is dependent on several ifs: if I have the genetic deficiency, if the l-methylfolate works for me. I have also read some blogs where the l-methylfolate didn't work. And the medical literature is mixed, for every one that says there's a connection there's another researcher that says there's not. What I've realized as I've been writing this is that I'm scared to hope. I've lived so long without hope and now I'm worried I'll get myself all excited about something only to be let down. I was excited with the switch in my diagnosis and meds, but still spend too much time depressed. So why should l-methylfolate be any different?
But my herculean effort for the beginning of the year is to go ahead and hope. So here I go, full of hope. I'm ready for a new life in 2012; I'm ready to find the essence of me again; I'm ready to experience joy and happiness in life again. Here's hoping for a good New Year!
I realize my hope is dependent on several ifs: if I have the genetic deficiency, if the l-methylfolate works for me. I have also read some blogs where the l-methylfolate didn't work. And the medical literature is mixed, for every one that says there's a connection there's another researcher that says there's not. What I've realized as I've been writing this is that I'm scared to hope. I've lived so long without hope and now I'm worried I'll get myself all excited about something only to be let down. I was excited with the switch in my diagnosis and meds, but still spend too much time depressed. So why should l-methylfolate be any different?
But my herculean effort for the beginning of the year is to go ahead and hope. So here I go, full of hope. I'm ready for a new life in 2012; I'm ready to find the essence of me again; I'm ready to experience joy and happiness in life again. Here's hoping for a good New Year!
2 comments:
YEAY for HOPE! What's the harm in it. The Lord is on your side and wants what is best of you. If He is ready for your life to find a high point again, he'll lead you to it. If methylfolate is the answer...the you will FEEL right about it.
The night I went to my first seminar by Dr. Rawlins I was sitting in my seat and had the warmest, most peaceful feeling wash over me that "this stuff" was a ground breaking discovery not only for me (because I was already on it and seeing good things happen) but for my family and generations behind me and for my kids and generations to come.
Pray about it. It's cant hurt.
Starting on the methylfolate can't hurt either. It's water soluble. If you don't need it...your will urinate it right out. :)
I'm here for you...rooting for you. HOPEing the "best" is not far off for you.
Melanie
Some members of my family struggle with depression also. I've been really careful over the years to watch myself for signs. I hope this works for you. Everyone deserves to be happy! Especially you!
I hope your holidays were nice. I know you came to Utah. I was pretty much sick with Bronchitis the whole two weeks of school break. That's what I inherited from my mother--bad lungs! It's so stupid!
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